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The Gospel without words…

I am reminded as I begin this post that I have had a privileged background in the education of my Spirit, whether or not I have always taken advantage of it or appreciated it. It began with 8 years at a parochial school in Chicago. It continued with 4 years at an all girls high school run by the Franciscan Sisters of Blessed Kunegunda. As a young adult I spent several years at a Bible Church on the campus of Wheaton College where I learned more Scripture than any time before or since. Later I graduated from seminary and later still earned a Doctor of Ministry degree. Believe me–many words that have brought me thus far.

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But more recently, I’ve come to read, to listen to, to observe, and understand the Gospel that is in clear sight, and available to all. The Gospel that is in creation: in the elements, in flora and fauna, in flying, buzzing, creeping things, in stars and planets, sun and moon, in the sound of the surf, and in the movement of the wind. I see it lived out creatures who sleep under the stars and wake to morning light. Things that without uttering one word, speak of who God is, and teach me how I might live–if/when I listen.

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For the past 5 years, by simply sliding open the darkening curtain in my room, the photo above is the first thing I see. The shadows falling on the seawall are cast by the houses on my street. The one, on the far right is the roof line of our house. Each morning is different, new, fresh. No two mornings look alike. The strength of the sun determines the colors. The wind determines the speed of the clouds. At least twice a year, for several weeks in spring and fall, the moon is still setting over the pine trees when the sun is rising. Not every morning is the lake a reflecting pond, but on this day it was. When the painted turtles hear the sliding door, they come over for breakfast.

Other than being peaceful and beautiful, it is also the Story of God’s twin gifts of sacrifice and renewal… The Gospel without words. The seawall you see was raised almost 2 feet in 2024. On the other side of it is a marsh that leads to the Florida Intracoastal Waterway. When a hurricane skims the east coast of Florida, millions of gallons of water pour into our little lake(s) because of sea rise/global warming. But 5 days before a storm (we always have notice for a hurricane) our community begins to pump out 2.4 million gallons of water daily from our lakes to make room for what the storm will bring back in. On about the 2nd day of the pumping, tops of trees start to appear in the middle of the lake where they have been sacrificed for the purpose of mitigation. The trees that needed to be felled for the lake are a metaphor for me, of Christ’s sacrifice for the good of many. And on days like the one in the picture, I am simply in awe of it all.

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What is it you see being renewed through sacrifice in the natural world? On a path we regularly walk there is a tree that has been scarred by damage. To save the tree, the limb was cut off, sacrificed. And into that hole almost the full diameter of where the limb was, the wind has carried dirt, and finally some spores that would develop into a plant. Because it is recessed, the rain seeps down into it from the leaves several feet overhead. And the young plant is protected from winds that might damage them. The scar has become a womb for new life. It’s not only an image of sacrifice and renewal, but of redemption and of hope.

I could go on and on about seeing, understanding, and the deepening of my faith that occurs daily without any more words needing to be read or spoken. My response is always one of gratitude for how freely and lavishly God makes love, mercy and hope known to anyone, anywhere, when we are ready.

May you be blessed today by the ordinary things you see around you. May you be called to consider in them what God is lovingly speaking to you. And may you share the joy with which it fills you, with those around you.

With much love,

Kathleen

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PRAYER: A RADICAL TRUST

Right now I’m reading several books at one time. One is a book on discernment –a very good book I may add; another on Ireland and the Celts; the third on meditation and contemplative prayer. The conflagration of the three has brought me to broach the subject of how to use a discerning heart (or even the spiritual gift of discernment) as I pray for others. It names a struggle I face in my own prayer life: Do I pray for someone in a specific way because they asked me to… or do I take that person, their needs, wants, desires to God and seek God’s best for them? Do I pray that their will be done… or that God’s will be done in their lives.

Sometimes as I pray for something specific that someone has asked, I’m led away from their request and find myself asking God to use their circumstances, need, situation, longing, even illness or grief to bring them closer to Him and His desire for their lives – even if it means they don’t receive what they want right now. At those times, I feel as though I ought to put out a disclaimer to anyone who asks me to pray that says: “I will pray for you. But please know, praying for God’s will to be done… is not necessarily what you’d like to be done.”

Are you brave enough to pray beyond what you can see? Are you willing to turn your needs and the needs of those you love, over to God and His intentions and purposes? Praying this way is more than tacking on “In Jesus’ Name” at the end of our prayer. It’s taking the time and effort to slow down… to seek God’s heart and will… and to listen before, during and after our prayer times for the holiest Spirit. It’s willing to be led in prayer and not be the leader.

But that’s not all, praying in this way includes yet another dimension –and this one inside of us. Because praying this way assumes a radical trust that God loves and knows us, that God is good, that God cares about the details of our lives, and that at any moment what God is allowing to happen in our lives is not for harm…but for good. Do you believe those things? Do you have such a radical trust?

Just this week three people, after sharing some of their life story, asked me to pray for them. As I prayed aloud I asked God to be with them, to heal them (even if they had no physical malady), to lead them and to bless them. As I continue to pray for these folks when they come to mind I’ll pray: “Your will be done, Lord” trusting what God wills and works is beyond anything I could come up with.

I’m becoming more aware that God’s unfathomable love for us includes both crucible and pleasant places. May our absolute trust in God’s goodness lead us to place ourselves and those we love into His tender care. BLESSINGS AND JOY, THE CELTIC MONK

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Sitting with Job

In my reading these past few weeks I’ve been accompanying Job the mythical biblical character who if he didn’t have misfortune, would have no fortune at all.  I spent time remembering my teacher in the Job course at Columbia Seminary, Dr. Kathleen O’Connor, and her depth of knowledge about and compassion towards this one called Job. I’ve used the passages from this book as they came up in the Sunday lectionary before…but right now…am finding new learnings from this guy no one wants to emulate.

The first of those learnings is that even as children of God, or perhaps especially as children of God, the only way to get beyond suffering is to go through it.  Job had to go through it. Abraham had to go through it.  Moses had to go through it.  Jacob had to go through it.  Jesus and Paul and Peter all walked into the suffering that was before them.  If I’m remembering any of Psychology 101, this Theology 101 of the way of suffering is supported by even secualr disciplines.  We all find out sooner or later that trying to postpone or avert suffering not only does not do those things…but sometimes increases it’s duration or the number of people it touches.   

Yet we’d be foolish to face suffering alone.  Even Jesus took three disciples with Him as he went into the Garden of Gethsemane.  Jesus went there to petition His Father for another way — but when it was clear there was no Plan B — Jesus chose to go through the suffering that was before him, with God’s help.  In the sufferings which come to us…we too would be foolish to face them alone, and we also need to seek God’s Presence with us each step of the way.

But another thing I’ve learned from Job lately, is that the trust in God it takes to move into our suffering, doesn’t come automatically, or all at once.  By the 23rd chapter (where I am this week) Job is still trying to reason his way through what he is suffering.  He’s wondering if darkness isn’t better than continuing on.  He’s wondering a lot of things in his own understanding which call God into question. 

I’m glad the whole long Book of Job isn’t the story of a spiritual super hero who leaps from tall buildings in a single bound of faith… who can stop the speeding bullets of doubt every time… or the charge of a locomotive with a verse he memorized as a child.  I’m glad Job had witless friends who led him astray and didn’t have all the answers.  I’m glad Job’s wife gave up quickly and told him to throw in the towel.  It makes him all the more accessible to me in my times of trial.

I’m not finished with this time through the Book of Job yet.  But I think more importantly, the Book of Job isn’t finished with me.  I’m savoring his call to go ahead and muster the courage to go through whatever trial comes; not ducking, side-stepping, or post-poning.  I’m heartened by his teaching me to reach up for the hand of God as I walk; how foolish to walk in a trial alone).  I need to learn (again and again and again it seems) to trust in the One in whose image I am made and not in the loudest voices all around me.   This last one at least means that I must get out of the fray once in a while to hear and see the One.

Even as I read back this post it brings a smile to my face.  People whose lives are in a hop,skip, jump mode from good, to better to best will likely read it and think “oh bummer.”  But any who have expereinced Jobian trials… whose lives are less certain…who are in the beginning, middle or end of a time of suffering will likely find some small light of comfort here. May we all receive what we need from what has been offered in our lives.  Blessings and Joy.  THE CELTIC MONK

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