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The Gospel without words…

I am reminded as I begin this post that I have had a privileged background in the education of my Spirit, whether or not I have always taken advantage of it or appreciated it. It began with 8 years at a parochial school in Chicago. It continued with 4 years at an all girls high school run by the Franciscan Sisters of Blessed Kunegunda. As a young adult I spent several years at a Bible Church on the campus of Wheaton College where I learned more Scripture than any time before or since. Later I graduated from seminary and later still earned a Doctor of Ministry degree. Believe me–many words that have brought me thus far.

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But more recently, I’ve come to read, to listen to, to observe, and understand the Gospel that is in clear sight, and available to all. The Gospel that is in creation: in the elements, in flora and fauna, in flying, buzzing, creeping things, in stars and planets, sun and moon, in the sound of the surf, and in the movement of the wind. I see it lived out creatures who sleep under the stars and wake to morning light. Things that without uttering one word, speak of who God is, and teach me how I might live–if/when I listen.

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For the past 5 years, by simply sliding open the darkening curtain in my room, the photo above is the first thing I see. The shadows falling on the seawall are cast by the houses on my street. The one, on the far right is the roof line of our house. Each morning is different, new, fresh. No two mornings look alike. The strength of the sun determines the colors. The wind determines the speed of the clouds. At least twice a year, for several weeks in spring and fall, the moon is still setting over the pine trees when the sun is rising. Not every morning is the lake a reflecting pond, but on this day it was. When the painted turtles hear the sliding door, they come over for breakfast.

Other than being peaceful and beautiful, it is also the Story of God’s twin gifts of sacrifice and renewal… The Gospel without words. The seawall you see was raised almost 2 feet in 2024. On the other side of it is a marsh that leads to the Florida Intracoastal Waterway. When a hurricane skims the east coast of Florida, millions of gallons of water pour into our little lake(s) because of sea rise/global warming. But 5 days before a storm (we always have notice for a hurricane) our community begins to pump out 2.4 million gallons of water daily from our lakes to make room for what the storm will bring back in. On about the 2nd day of the pumping, tops of trees start to appear in the middle of the lake where they have been sacrificed for the purpose of mitigation. The trees that needed to be felled for the lake are a metaphor for me, of Christ’s sacrifice for the good of many. And on days like the one in the picture, I am simply in awe of it all.

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What is it you see being renewed through sacrifice in the natural world? On a path we regularly walk there is a tree that has been scarred by damage. To save the tree, the limb was cut off, sacrificed. And into that hole almost the full diameter of where the limb was, the wind has carried dirt, and finally some spores that would develop into a plant. Because it is recessed, the rain seeps down into it from the leaves several feet overhead. And the young plant is protected from winds that might damage them. The scar has become a womb for new life. It’s not only an image of sacrifice and renewal, but of redemption and of hope.

I could go on and on about seeing, understanding, and the deepening of my faith that occurs daily without any more words needing to be read or spoken. My response is always one of gratitude for how freely and lavishly God makes love, mercy and hope known to anyone, anywhere, when we are ready.

May you be blessed today by the ordinary things you see around you. May you be called to consider in them what God is lovingly speaking to you. And may you share the joy with which it fills you, with those around you.

With much love,

Kathleen

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Peace, Mercy and Grace to you

I found myself up in the middle of the night, wide awake, with no discernable purpose. This blank page of time doesn’t happen often. If I do wake in the watches of the night there’s usually a reason that rather quickly reveals itself. But not last night. So I began the inventory of the usual suspects… too hot? too cold? numbness or pain? my ‘to do’ list for tomorrow? concerns for a loved one? recent news? the planet? No, I thought. I covered most of those things as I prayed before sleeping. So what’s up–or better yet–why am I up?

My mind wandered around for a while and settled on the words above, words I’d recently written in closing a note to a friend. Now lying on my back watching shadows of water dancing on the ceiling I wondered what I meant by them, by each of them. Good question. What did I mean? And like a row of perfectly placed Dominos… the answers began to fall perfectly as if by design.

The peace I intended to send was a feeling–the feeling of taking a deep breath and feeling one’s whole body responding pleasantly to the increase in oxygen. As I thought of it last night, and as I am writing it now I couldn’t help but taking that kind of breath. The peace that I hoped for my friend was the openness and ease of such breaths, as a part of their life. Yes that was it.

But why mercy? What was I thinking? Too much theological training likely. Thinking about it now, I don’t know if I was hoping they would be the recipient of mercy (compassionate forgiveness) or would dispense it to others. The promise of the Beatitude aside, my experience is that it’s a lifes work to be a person of mercy. “Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.”

Grace came easily into my hopes and wishes that day. Just as easily as I see it everywhere. I believe that unmerited favor is ours any time we witness something beautiful… in relationships, in nature, in an interaction with a stranger, in silent solitary times, in rush hour traffic, in life’s pedestrian and ecstatic moments. Grace just is–for those who see with their heart. Knowing all these moments of life as grace-filled is something we grow in.

I needed to sort all those things out for some reason at an hour when the almost full moon was high in the western sky making the water outside my window dance a reflection on my ceiling causing the rod and arms of the still ceiling fan look like the petals of a flower blowing in a breeze. I said ‘thank You’ as a response. I was in a moment of grace.

These thoughts led me to the practice of a widening circle prayer. I prayed for this peace, mercy and grace for myself. I prayed for peace, mercy and grace for Sam, sound asleep beside me. I prayed for peace, mercy and grace for my son, daughter-in-law, and grandchildren… pausing to consider what that might look like for each of them (because it is different for all of us). I continued out in widening circles to extended family, to friends, to neighbors, as faces or names came to mind. With the list of folks I knew now nearly exhausted, I continued to consider those I don’t know. Peace, mercy and grace to any who are awake in the middle of the night. Peace, mercy and grace to the lonely. Peace, mercy, and grace to those in places of war or disturbance. Peace, mercy and grace to unjust world leaders. Peace, mercy and grace to those who…

I don’t know who was next. I fell back asleep by the time I got to the unjust leaders and pictured them taking a breath and becoming a little more humane… then experiencing compassionate forgiveness (mercy) being willing to offer it to those over whom they wielded power… and being a recipient of God’s unmeritied favor, I observed them seeing the humanity of every living creature. The world set right, I fell asleep in peace. “I will lie down in peace, and sleep comes at once, for You alone Lord make me dwell in safety.”

There is a name for what I call the widening circle prayer, in Buddhism. I’ve long since forgotten the Sanskrit name. But on a more or less regular basis, I find myself praying this way. I’m not hoping to throw ideas out into an unknown universe, but petitioning the Creator of that universe. Beyond that, I believe my prayer is joining the Creator’s desire as well. The final piece I am aware of more and more, is that I cannot pray for something for myself, that I also don’t wish, hope, or desire for all others. We are all connected. Our well-being depends on the well-being of all. It cannot be any other way.

So to those of you I know, and those of you I don’t; to those of you who are at this moment doing really great and those of you living on the edge; to those of you who need peace or can offer it; who are in need of compassonate forgiveness or can extend it to someone; to those of you who know unmerited favor or aren’t even sure it exists; to all of you I offer Peace, Mercy and Grace today and in all the days to come. And I invite you to make your own widening circle prayer.

With much hope,

Kathleen Bronagh Weller thecelticmonk

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A CONVERSATION WITH SILENCE

Guilt.Shame.Ought.Should.Law

My given name is guilt, shame, ought, should, law. And I learned well to live my name. My up-bringing by my blessedly religious family prepared me to continue the guilt and shame, ought’s and should’s well into my adult life—to keep me on the straight and narrow path. I can use each of my names to measure myself and others…to see if we’re up to the demands of law by which I define myself (and you). It’s really been work to continue to live in constant guilt, shame, ought’s, should’s and by the letter of the law. But by God, I do it, because isn’t that what He teaches?

I had a neighbor once whose given name was freedom. peace,.spaciousness.grace and permission. She lived very differently than we did at my house. But to tell you the truth, I’m a little suspicious of her and her kind. All that ‘love as God loves’ stuff. ‘Being rather than doing’. ‘Living in the present moment.’ ‘Trusting the invisible Spirit.’ What need do I have for an invisible Spirit? I have this great big book of rules and laws. They have been carved into my heart, incised deeply. It was painful but necessary because now I can tell you what to believe and how to believe it. And if you won’t do it willingly, I have all I need to shame you into doing it my way, the right way.

I can’t imagine living in freedom and spaciousness. Who needs to make all those decisions constantly when I can simply turn a page and tell you how to live? Seeking God for His leading all the time will only get you into trouble. How can you know, really know what God wants? Here, there’s one right way…no need to try others. And there’s no need to trust anything or anyone invisible… it’s all right here in black and white.

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What’s that? What about peace? No, I don’t think too much about peace. I have so many things to remember to do and I must remember exactly how to do them. I don’t have any time to wonder about peace – whether I have it or not. Peace isn’t all that important anyway. Obedience I tell you. Obeying. There’s the victory. It’s how we win the war.

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Yes, I know… even the word victory leads to thinking that God created winners and losers… those who are in and those who are out. And war indicates a vicious battle. But isn’t that what Jesus taught? There’s a victory to be had – a war to be won.

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He didn’t?

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Well, I don’t remember Jesus saying one word about everyone being included, everyone allowed entry, everyone loved. There are rules you know. There are only a few of us doing it really right.

From the Silence of the Spirit in a whisper:

For God so loved the world…

That everyone who believes…

To the Jew first, but also to the Greek…

When I am raised up I shall call all people to myself…

Spirit Silence growing, while still a whisper in the soul, now sounding like a symphony, a beautiful piece of music:

What if we all began believing that still today God intends to show His love to all people? That God loves us all so very much, that He’s just waiting for us to pause, to look up, so that He can begin to shower us with goodness and blessing… That God is waiting to open the gates to heaven to us so that we might live in the freedom of who we are, in the uniqueness of who we were created to be; so that every nuance of our particular creation is revealed in us, as God intended , so that we experience God and live for Him like no one else…but in such spaciousness of being and Spirit…that we can invite others into our experience of God were they’d be welcomed into the place in us where we’ve received God’s love and find there who they uniquely are in God’s love as well. And there, there would be such peace as together we stood gazing at God whose shimmering presence would so overwhelm us both…that we’d weep for sheer joy.

Silence of Spirit returns. Now addressing Guilt.Shame.Ought.Should.Law gently but directly: “Why are you crying?”

To which Guilt.Shame.Ought.Should.Law replies: For joy, I think. For sheer joy.

And Silence wept with her.

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